Finding The Right Fit With Torrid Jeans

I’ve got money in these jeans, so they fit kind of snug. In my whole entire adult (and teen) life I never thought that my belly button would make an appearance. Plagued by memories of ill fitting lowrise jeans that caused severe muffin tops as a 13 year old, I figured there were no lowrise jeans for big girls. Those jeans were not made for bellies. Maybe it’s just me, but it seems like a

Back To School Plus Size Clothes

Back to school clothes shopping as a plus-size teen back in the day…. yikes Forever21 Plus asked me to create a back to school look and holy shit was I triggered thinking about how hard back to school shopping used to be for me as a kid and teenager. I can’t sugar coat this shit because sugar coated shit is still just shit: back to school shopping was the W O R S T as

Rocking Any Size In Swimsuits For All’s Origami Swimsuit

Be Fluid No matter your size I hope you live to your fullest and freshest. Channel your inner Rihanna who is a fashion killa at a size 0 and a size 4/6. Sometimes our bodies change (have y’all heard of hormones, stress, environment?). One week we’re smaller and a few weeks later we’re bigger. Don’t spend your week agonizing over 5 pounds or 25 pounds you’ve recently lost or gained. Body positivity is about accepting

My Struggles With Food & Eating Disorders in Flavor Town aka the Guy Fieri Look Book

Reading “Guy-talian Nachos” and “Awesome Pretzel Chicken Tenders” off of Guy Fieri’s Guy’s American Kitchen Bar Menu was when I realized that I had maybe hit rock bottom. Not because I was in NYC at a Guy Fieri restaurant (also, no shade…. I clearly love Guy), but because I was at work in Chicago and somehow had spent an hour looking at Guy Fieri menus. ┬áThis was really common for me to spend hours looking

Moving and Grooving My Jiggle In My Pakrat

Every chubby and fat chick knows what it’s like to be in the gym while people stare as you jiggle on the treadmill. Instead of focusing on your body you’re focusing on “am I jiggling too much?” and “shit, are all those people laughing at me?” We feel shame at the gym and we’re shamed if we don’t go to the gym. It makes taking care of your body pretty damn difficult when you’re shamed

Rocking The GabiFresh Milestone Bikini To Ring In My Bikiniversary

She Wore An Itsy Bitsy Teenie Weenie Cactus Bikini Last year in March I was on vacation in San Diego. Not only that, but I had recently purchased a ballin out dope bikini from the GabiFresh x Swimsuitsforall 2016 line. On our last day in San Diego I finally worked up the courage to do a photoshoot in my beautiful fatkini. The whole entire shoot I was nervous as hell and embarrassed even though there

I’m Just Too Much For You… In My Isolated Heroes Sequin Duster

” I fucks with you ’til I realize I’m just too much for you. I’m just too much for you.” – Beyonce (because she knows everything) Some of us are wasting time being disingenuous, not to other people, but to ourselves. We worry “am I too much of this or not enough of that?” Well, the truth is for some people we are too much or not enough. That’s just how it goes. Instead of

Finding my set point weight and happiness at my heaviest

The story of before and after my fear of 210 I had an irrational fear of a number. This number consumed me. It scared me. 210 caused me anxiety. Everything was wrong with 210. 210 was unacceptable. It was the tipping point. 210 represented failure. Since I was 18 I’ve touched 210 every other year, if not every year. ┬áBefore 210, I always feared 200. When I touched 200, though, my new fear became 210.